Rejecting commonly held, even centuries old, interpretations of scripture is not the same thing as rejecting scripture.
Opposing the current state of the/a church is not the same thing as opposing the Body of Christ.
Rejecting politicized theology is not the same thing as rejecting Truth.
Distrusting certain church leaders is not the same thing as distrusting spiritual appointment.
Encouraging honest questions is not the same thing as encouraging unfaithfulness.
Welcoming righteous challenges to the status quo is not the same thing as welcoming dissension.
People will always make these types of inaccurate characterizations and accusations. If you aren’t surrounded by a body of honest, supportive, rational, and humble believers, then all of these pursuits can feel extremely isolating. However, if pursued in the context of healthy relationships and with pure intentions to seek God and Truth, they can be very edifying and releasing.
For a long time I felt trapped by a community of people who attacked my character any time I dared to do any of the above. Now that I’m free, I hope to be encouragement to anyone who finds themselves where I once was.
Don’t give up. Not on God, not on yourself, not even on the people who accuse and hurt you. But especially don’t give up on your questions. God loves the honest seeker. You are not alone. I’ve been there, and so have many others much wiser than me. Hopefully, in time, you will find the healthy family that encourages your questions through love, guidance, and accountability. You will find your freedom in Truth, just as Christ intended for you.